Yesterday morning I was perusing through Twitter when I cam across Lindsay’s Tweet that said Running On Empty and it had a link. Being ever so curious and knowing Lindsay’s posts are informative about nutrition I couldn’t wait to read. I must have ignored the fact that it came from Runner’s World.
What I read left me thinking and scratching my head. This wasn’t an article about how to run while your glycogen stores were depleted. This wasn’t about how to convert fat to energy and train your body to do so efficiently. No this article was about the obsessive mentality of weight and running. We have all read about how we are faster when we are lighter. We pay attention to what we eat, sometimes to when we eat and even more so for some how much we eat.
I am not a calorie counter. I tried it for a few days and it didn’t work for me. Hated the time it took to look up food and get the numbers. Plus I was thinking to myself what is the point? Just step on the scale and see what happened then adjust from there.
I have tried food logs and until this very week I have been terrible at it. This week I am keeping a food log so that I can display on my Frugal Grocer post what I bought and what I made.
What I did do and continue to do is get on the scale. I don’t get on the scale once a day. I get on the scale multiple times a day. I am obsessed with changes in my weight and what causes them. Sometimes to the point of ridiculous and I have to laugh at myself. I can tell you that my clothes (jeans, t-shirts, socks) weigh approximately 3.4 pounds. If I wear sneakers on the scale too you can make that 5 lbs. I started to figure out the weight of my clothes because if I forgot to weight myself in the morning I was not going to strip all the way down…..call me lazy but doing the math was easier.
Now I tend to fluctuate in a 3 lb range (144-147 lbs) unless I am one month out from a race. For a race I want to weigh approximately 140 lbs. That has become a magical number for me because I always feel my strongest at that weight and have seen my performance peak at that weight. Approximately 4 weeks out from a race I can be seen weighing ~145 lbs and this is on purpose. I know I can lose 1 lb per week leading up to a race without any decrease in my ability. Losing 1 pound is a matter of math and removal of the emotion. I say it is a matter of math because it comes down to a deficit of 500 calories per day. Over the course of a week that is 3500 calories or 1 lb.
What I don’t do is beat myself up if at the end of the week I am not down a full pound. These things happen and I just need to focus more on my hunger queues and make smarter decisions. Last week there were 3 Vegan cupcakes left on the counter (I am less than a month out from 70.3 San Juan) and I was hungry. I ate one and it was so good that I ate another, then I ate the last. Yup, all 3 in one sitting. Did I feel guilty and beat myself up over that? Nope, I just said to myself…..’Self, there are no more cupcakes so no more temptation. Good job at getting rid of those tempting treats and now tomorrow do better.’ I have done better and on Wednesday morning when I weighed myself I was at 143.4 pounds. 3.4 pounds to lose in 25 days or a little over three weeks.
There will be people who read this post and say that I obsess too much over my weight and knowing what my clothes weigh is a sign of that. Maybe they are right, but what I know about myself is that I don’t eat to eat nor do I starve myself. I don’t count calories and I have a healthy relationship with food.
I enjoy cooking and eating, as evidenced by the title of the blog. I get in the kitchen and I sample as I cook. I make sure that it tastes good and then I eat it. What I don’t do is eat with excuses. I don’t say only this once or never again because I don’t restrict myself. I focus on my body telling me its hungry rather than the emotion telling me its hungry.
As a matter of fact the article has a link to a quiz to test your relationship with food. I answered True to only 1 question on this quiz and that told me that I enjoy eating balanced, healthy meals and don’t sweat the occasional splurges.
When you read this article I think you can see the difference between disorderly eating and what I do. This article points out compulsive workouts and well because of my OCD I only do what coach prescribes. I hired her to do a job because she can do it better than I can and I will leave that to the experts. My training year is planned out and we follow along and make adjustments as needed but otherwise when I get my schedule on Saturday night I stick to it.
WHY DO YOU EAT?
HOW DID YOU SCORE ON THE QUIZ?